Blessed Are Those Who Mourn

Hi Friends,

I pray that you all had a wonderful Thanksgiving with your families and that this holiday season is a peaceful one.

I wanted to share with you some things that that have been going on with me and Jesus lately. There are a few different excerpts below of writing that have come from intimate moments with Him and revelations that are changing me. Enjoy :)

My heart has been grieving so, so hard the past few weeks. Grieving about literally everything. Grieving things I could not have imagined I would be grieving in this present season. Grieving things I don’t even understand and can only ask God to speak to my soul about because I know He knows. It's been very hard. BUT, as I've let myself grieve, and clung to Him through it, He has brought some amazing intimacy and revelations from it all. He is changing my heart and softening it into something so beautiful. As I grieve it all, the things I understand and the things I don’t, He is taking it all and filling me up with His love. A love so deep and so transformative than I've ever known. A love that is becoming my identity, a love that is flowing out for others like I've never had before, a love for Him and His ways. It's shaping my reality into a new one with new sight from him. He's teaching me a level of trust that I cannot even understand. He's freeing me, of more than I ever knew I needed to be freed from. I'm starting to see what it means to have both deep sorrow and deep joy at the same time. I'm learning what it means to feel so utterly lonely yet be so full at the same time. It is so, so hard. And so beautiful.

I mentioned that He is teaching me a level of trust that I cannot understand. That comment came from this revelation.

There’s an excitement that comes with trusting God now for me. Because underneath it is the solid knowledge that he will provide and even exceed my expectations in those provisions. He has shown me His goodness and faithfulness time and time again, so I have no need to fear when He asks me to trust. I can only imagine what it will be like later in life when I have so much more evidence of His faithfulness and goodness. It’ll be pure joy to trust Him and literally hand over everything to Him. Even my life.

I have had so many sweet moments with my King and friend, Jesus, in the last month or so. I’ve also experienced grief deeper than ever. My soul has been aching. But that has walked me into some profoundly intimate moments with Jesus and my Father. If I have learned anything from this past month, it’s this…

When the grief comes, don’t push it away. Let it take you to the arms of the Father. Let Him speak into it. The grief is actually a blessing. “Blessed are those who mourn, for they will be comforted" (Matthew 5:4). When we are broken-hearted, we have the chance to be comforted by our Father in Heaven. We get to lean into His heart and know more of Him. It’s a gift. Don’t suppress it. Go to Him.

I pray blessings over you all! Thank you for reading and following.

Rachel

***P.S. I am in the middle of fundraising for my next step with G42. I would love for you to partner with me and help me continue to go deeper with the Father as I follow His will. If you’re interested, check out my last blog here with all the information!